Generalized Anxiety Disorder ruined my life completely?

Listen to me...your life is certainly not ruined. When my anxiety/ panic was still an uncontrollable mystery to me, I lost several jobs. But the longer you have this condition, the more you learn about yourself and how to control it, and the better life gets. Myself and many others took years to even be able to acknowledge that it really was an anxiety disorder because at first you are so damned confused and scared, you don't know what the heck to believe. By accepting the diagnosis, you are already making progress. Patience. It starts out as a mess that you can't imagine ever being able to control...but when you get the right medication and take care of yourself with vitamins, exercise, and learning how you personally deal with stress best, things get better and better. The panic experiences will eventually help you know yourself and how to calm yourself through it. I still have panic attacks but they are few and far between and much less severe. Your life is still in tact but you need to stay calm and tackle this with self- care. Get counseling if you can. A good mental health professional specializing in anxiety can teach you how to handle this. Right now the disorder is controlling you, but in time you can control the disorder. As far as your jobs, you need something like xanax to take at work to get you through the day until you are stronger.